It has been a while since I last sat down to blog a bit about the happenings of my days, and wow - there has been much change!
*I'm engaged to be married!
*I've created a wedding blog with the meeting, dating, engagement story of Brian & I (copied below)
*I've begun my fourth year of teaching for Berrien RESA's Autism program.
*I'm wearing the most beautiful, elegant, perfect engagement ring.
*I have in my posession a wedding gown and a license to wed.
*I'm counting down the days until I become Mrs. Brian Smith (20 after 2:00 this afternoon)
*I will turn 29 on October 3.
Here is our story (so far...)
Sarah & Brian
1. It was October 2011 when I introduced myself to Brian
Smith at Freshwater Community Church in Coloma, Michigan with little thought.
He was not on my radar as anything more than yet another cool person God
brought into my world...
As months passed by, we began to see more of each other at
church gatherings, community group, youth group meetings and shared stories of
things we had in common, especially in relation to our teaching professions. He
was still not on my radar....
January 2012 brought about a series of shared experiences
with the youth group, where I began to notice some characteristics about this
man that were intriguing- the way the local youth respected him highly, his
great listening skills, and his thoughtfulness (i.e. intentionally opening the
door for me at church one day). I also noticed his height when I went up to ask
him a question once! :)
There was a youth retreat planned for the last weekend of
January, and I knew- when my excitement level about going was a little over the
top- that this man had begun to catch my attention.
2. End of January/beginning of February 2012: Radar
spotting!
I managed to get myself a ride to retreat in the Suburban
that Brian was piloting, and the 3+ hour drive shared with several of his
past/current 9th & 10th grade students was filled with memory making,
including a 29 minute freeze out on the highway in the middle of winter!
Nothing "special" happened at retreat, we just kept investing in our
relationships with the students, yet I also found myself hoping we'd end up
near each other during various activities. After a long, tiring, wonderful
weekend, I got back home to Stevensville and crashed, hoping to rest a little
before the school week began. However, a text from Brian asking if I might want
to come to Coloma to watch Psych with him, Justin & Lindsay put me back in
my car and on the road again. (Justin VanFerrari said he knew something was up
when I did this-totally not typical of me!) The following week, texts flew back
& forth, and seemingly all of the sudden, Brian Smith was huge on my radar!
3. February
8, 2012
Two jars
of clay talk about life & grace & a Saviour
We met for
our first date, before youth group, at Qdoba in St. Joseph, Michigan. I'd
shared lunch with Anna that day and knew that I wanted to hear Brian's story
for our first date. I was pretty nervous to say the least, so much so that we
walked right out of the restaurant without any food and drove to the beach
where I had opportunity to hear his story and share some of mine. This was a
very special evening of talking about what God's done in our lives to bring us
where we are today, by his grace. 1 Corinthians 4:6-7 "For God, who said,
“Let light shine out of darkness,”[a] made his light shine in our hearts to
give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of
Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this
all-surpassing power is from God and not from us."
4. Journaled
between February 14- May 6, 2012
Ask me why
Brian Smith has captured my attention & is winning my heart...
to name a
few: *a Son of the One I call LORD of my life *Abide… *man of prayer *loves the
Word *interprets the Word w/ life application questions, understanding *2 Cor.
4:5-7 *total realness *I am 100% at peace; never felt that way about anyone
else I’ve ever been interested in *butterflies *not afraid to challenge me
*lover of adventure *similar interests/convictions *desires to have a family
*we pray together (my heart melted when he first offered to pray with me
(2-3-12; I always dreamed of having a relationship like that….) *loves God
first, then people *passionate about following God *respected by students
*gentle *caring *opens doors & pays for dates *understands my lack of understanding
in certain things and is willing to teach me (i.e. basketball) *seeks
accountability from respected Christ followers *strives to go to God before me
*life long learner *learning to live in Reality of Redemption *willing to set
boundaries with me (i.e. time & physical) so we can best honor the LORD
*genuine compliments & words of affirmation that melt my heart *holding
hands… ☺ *so “boy” (Jeep, adventures in nature, etc.) *seeks God on his own and
with me… *seeks clear & consistent communication *those who know him
respect him (many people of a variety of ages) *family is important to him. He
has a good relationship w/ immediate and extended family (Many in family are
believers (an extra blessing!)) *desires to have a family (is good with little
ones) *strives to make wise, financial decisions (no debt/credit cards)
*desires to spend daily time with God in the morning; recognizes impact this
has on him *learns from, thinks about and applies the Word *recognizes the
importance of being in a church body *seeks spiritual accountability from
trusted, respected followers of Christ *relates with people on a level they can
understand/be comfortable with *respectful *respectable *learns from mistakes
*gets along well with my family *my friends respect & like him *he is
becoming my best friend…. *the things he appreciates about me are the ways I
have seen the LORD change and mold me throughout my life; he appreciates who
God has made me, the “God version, not Sarah version.” *my standards, values,
and worldview are respected by him; in many ways match his own.
5. Journal
entry from July 5, 2012
The Asking
of Her Hand
"Today,
if all goes as intended, the man I love will talk with my daddy... oh the
wonder of it all, that the man who raised me from infancy, has loved and cared
for me so very well over the past 28 years, will meet today with the man, who
LORD willing, will love and take care of me for the rest of my time on
earth." Engaged to be engaged!!! No ring yet, but having talked about a
fall wedding and getting the go-ahead from Daddy & Mama, wedding plans
began in earnest! Not shouting to the world that I get to marry Brian Wesley
Smith was far from the easiest thing to do, but I was able to enjoy getting
some time to soak up what it all means before answering questions and getting
every detail taken care of.
6. August
24, 2012
The Ring!
Brian and
I have a sort of tradition to read through the Psalms together, and on occasion
we have shared coffee & read a psalm on his parents quiet front porch
looking out at God's beautiful creation. So- when he asked if I'd like to sit
on the rocker for a bit, I thought nothing of it but thankfulness for another
precious time like this before school craziness began... We were supposed to
read Psalm 49 that morning, but as we sat down, Brian mentioned that he wanted
to read a psalm that his Grandma Co had told him about and that he'd read
earlier that week, so we turned to Psalm 34. Reading through it, there were a
few things that caught my attention and we shared about how various verses
connected to some life situations and goals we had. My heart particularly
connected with Psalm 34:3, which says, "O magnify the LORD with me, let us
exalt his name together." As Brian re-read this verse, he mentioned that
this was a verse his grandma thought would be a wonderful PROPOSAL verse!!! I
just stared at him as he got down on one knee in front of me, took my left hand
and asked if I would spend the rest of my life trying to worship God with him
as his wife!!! I was overcome with a myriad of emotions, thankfulness, joy,
wonder, and praise to God for this moment, for this man whose heart is for the
LORD, who was asking me to join him for a lifetime of togetherness in making
God bigger. I could not speak, and just wrapped my arms around him as I cried
and cried and finally was able to look at him and say, "yes." As he
got off his knee, he asked if I'd like to see the ring (which I'd known was
coming and had been anxiously awaiting). As he opened the box and slid the ring
on my finger, I felt so blessed by more things than I can put into words.
Dainty, elegant, sparkling, PERFECT! This ring holds such significance as I
continue to live the next 56 days of my single life preparing to marry, live
with and love the LORD with Brian Wesley Smith for the rest of my earthly days.
p.s. Brian gets mega points for surprising me with this proposal that I knew
was coming any day!